14.10.19
We wear the mask that grins and lies,
It hides our cheeks and shades our eyes,-
This debt we pay to human guile;
With torn and bleeding hearts we smile,
And mouth with myriad subtleties.

Why should the world be over-wise,
In counting all our tears and sighs?
Nay, let them only see us, while
We wear the mask.

We smile, but, O great Christ our cries
To thee from tortured souls arise.
We sing, but oh the clay is vile
Beneath our feet, and long the mile;
But let the world dream otherwise,
We wear the mask!
-We Wear the Mask, by Paul Laurence Dunbar
Follow the crowd and love everybody now ‘cause love is the best thing for you now. But you changed your mind- you let everybody down, but down is the best place for you. It’s easier that way, you know it’s so wrong, can’t embrace it, wish sometimes for any other you. But you can’t erase it and you won’t escape it. Don’t waste your time, your words only confine you to all of the things you’ve buried now. Don’t ask them why, their wisdom will leave you blind, but blind is the best thing for you, it’s easier I know. You know it’s so wrong, can’t embrace it, wish sometimes for any other you. But you can’t erase it and you won’t escape it. How long will you face it till the weight comes crashing down on you?
~Can’t Erase It.Jars of Clay

14.10.19

We wear the mask that grins and lies,

It hides our cheeks and shades our eyes,-

This debt we pay to human guile;

With torn and bleeding hearts we smile,

And mouth with myriad subtleties.

Why should the world be over-wise,

In counting all our tears and sighs?

Nay, let them only see us, while

We wear the mask.

We smile, but, O great Christ our cries

To thee from tortured souls arise.

We sing, but oh the clay is vile

Beneath our feet, and long the mile;

But let the world dream otherwise,

We wear the mask!

-We Wear the Mask, by Paul Laurence Dunbar

Follow the crowd and love everybody now ‘cause love is the best thing for you now. But you changed your mind- you let everybody down, but down is the best place for you. It’s easier that way, you know it’s so wrong, can’t embrace it, wish sometimes for any other you. But you can’t erase it and you won’t escape it. Don’t waste your time, your words only confine you to all of the things you’ve buried now. Don’t ask them why, their wisdom will leave you blind, but blind is the best thing for you, it’s easier I know. You know it’s so wrong, can’t embrace it, wish sometimes for any other you. But you can’t erase it and you won’t escape it. How long will you face it till the weight comes crashing down on you?

~Can’t Erase It.Jars of Clay

14.10.17
It feels like so long ago that I sent out my application to what would change my life. That night, I sang this song and found new meaning within its lyrics. This song has been a comfort, a friend and a reminder of exactly who my God is.
After today, I’ll get me out of this place into the world so I can set a new pace. Seems I’m on my own from here, I’ve got to face so many fears, but won’t you lay me in your hands of grace? I’ve got a funny feeling that I’m going to go away, I’m going to face my future going to try to make the grade. I’ve got a ways to go from here and vision doesn’t seem so clear, but praise God, he’s got a plan, understanding isn’t my place. And after today I’m going to come face to face with a new world who knows I’m feeling this way. I’ve got a ways to go from here, I’m going to overcome these fears, but still I’m going to need your hands of grace. I’ve got a funny feeling that I’m going to go away, going to face my future going to try to make the grade. I’ve got a ways to go from here and vision doesn’t seem so clear, but praise God, he’s got a plan, understanding isn’t my place. I’ll be a bigger man for, a bigger man for today. I’ll pray a bigger prayer for, a bigger prayer for today. I’ll dream a bigger dream for, a bigger dream for today.
~After Today.Sanctus Real

14.10.17

It feels like so long ago that I sent out my application to what would change my life. That night, I sang this song and found new meaning within its lyrics. This song has been a comfort, a friend and a reminder of exactly who my God is.

After today, I’ll get me out of this place into the world so I can set a new pace. Seems I’m on my own from here, I’ve got to face so many fears, but won’t you lay me in your hands of grace? I’ve got a funny feeling that I’m going to go away, I’m going to face my future going to try to make the grade. I’ve got a ways to go from here and vision doesn’t seem so clear, but praise God, he’s got a plan, understanding isn’t my place. And after today I’m going to come face to face with a new world who knows I’m feeling this way. I’ve got a ways to go from here, I’m going to overcome these fears, but still I’m going to need your hands of grace. I’ve got a funny feeling that I’m going to go away, going to face my future going to try to make the grade. I’ve got a ways to go from here and vision doesn’t seem so clear, but praise God, he’s got a plan, understanding isn’t my place. I’ll be a bigger man for, a bigger man for today. I’ll pray a bigger prayer for, a bigger prayer for today. I’ll dream a bigger dream for, a bigger dream for today.

~After Today.Sanctus Real

14.10.16
There is still a very large part of me that wishes I could go back to who I was before all of this. There are two mental games I play, but I can only win one at a time. I sometimes wish I had never realized that. I wish I could go back to the days that seemed so much easier.
Then I remind myself, “You were happy last year.”
I don’t know where to go from here, it all used to seem so clear. I’m finding I can’t do this on my own. I don’t know where to go from here, as long as I know that you are near I’m done fighting. I’m finally letting go. I will trust in you- you’ve never failed before- I will trust in you. If there’s a road I should walk, help me find it. If I need to be still give me peace for the moment. Whatever your will, whatever your will, can you help me find it? Can you help me find it? I’m giving you fear and you give faith, I’m giving you doubt you give me grace. For every step I’ve never been alone. Even when it hurts you’ll have your way, even in the valley I will say with every breath, “You never let me go.” I will wait for you.
~Help Me Find It.Sidewalk Prophets

14.10.16

There is still a very large part of me that wishes I could go back to who I was before all of this. There are two mental games I play, but I can only win one at a time. I sometimes wish I had never realized that. I wish I could go back to the days that seemed so much easier.

Then I remind myself, “You were happy last year.”

I don’t know where to go from here, it all used to seem so clear. I’m finding I can’t do this on my own. I don’t know where to go from here, as long as I know that you are near I’m done fighting. I’m finally letting go. I will trust in you- you’ve never failed before- I will trust in you. If there’s a road I should walk, help me find it. If I need to be still give me peace for the moment. Whatever your will, whatever your will, can you help me find it? Can you help me find it? I’m giving you fear and you give faith, I’m giving you doubt you give me grace. For every step I’ve never been alone. Even when it hurts you’ll have your way, even in the valley I will say with every breath, “You never let me go.” I will wait for you.

~Help Me Find It.Sidewalk Prophets

14.10.14
"Love: Bigger than any wave; more powerful than any fear." -Soul Surfer
Am I at the point of knowing improvement? What of the death I still dwell in? I try to excel, but I feel no movement. Can I be free of this unreleasable sin? Never underestimate my Jesus. You’re telling me that there’s no hope, I’m telling you you’re wrong. Never underestimate my Jesus and when the world around you crumbles you will be strong, you will be strong.
~For the Moments I Feel Faint.Relient K

14.10.14

"Love: Bigger than any wave; more powerful than any fear." -Soul Surfer

Am I at the point of knowing improvement? What of the death I still dwell in? I try to excel, but I feel no movement. Can I be free of this unreleasable sin? Never underestimate my Jesus. You’re telling me that there’s no hope, I’m telling you you’re wrong. Never underestimate my Jesus and when the world around you crumbles you will be strong, you will be strong.

~For the Moments I Feel Faint.Relient K

14.10.13
I’m thankful for my last year- for all the opportunities it presented me with and for the way it opened my eyes to more than all I’ve ever known. But I miss it. I miss it so dearly. I would give anything to go back into that ministry. I feel confined here. For that, I am not grateful.
There are no streets to walk on, no maps you can rely on, faith and guts to guide you- wander till you find you. Only raw desire, no match to give you fire. You have to trust your heart. They don’t believe in oceans. You, you were a sailor who burned your ship and walked on, far away you walked on. You keep turning inland where no man is an island, it’s where you’re supposed to be. You keep heading inland where no man is an island, come on home to me. Afraid of your convictions, they said the land will change you. Steady your confession, course make no corrections. When you are a stranger hold your tongue and wager that love will set you free until it sets you free. You keep walking inland where no man is an island, come on home to me. Just follow your desire, leave it all- you’re leaving it all. Just burn it in the fire of everything you once knew and everyone that knew you. Remove the shoes you came on, feel the earth you’re made from, pack up all your questions, just keep heading inland and come on home to me.
~Inland.Jars of Clay

14.10.13

I’m thankful for my last year- for all the opportunities it presented me with and for the way it opened my eyes to more than all I’ve ever known. But I miss it. I miss it so dearly. I would give anything to go back into that ministry. I feel confined here. For that, I am not grateful.

There are no streets to walk on, no maps you can rely on, faith and guts to guide you- wander till you find you. Only raw desire, no match to give you fire. You have to trust your heart. They don’t believe in oceans. You, you were a sailor who burned your ship and walked on, far away you walked on. You keep turning inland where no man is an island, it’s where you’re supposed to be. You keep heading inland where no man is an island, come on home to me. Afraid of your convictions, they said the land will change you. Steady your confession, course make no corrections. When you are a stranger hold your tongue and wager that love will set you free until it sets you free. You keep walking inland where no man is an island, come on home to me. Just follow your desire, leave it all- you’re leaving it all. Just burn it in the fire of everything you once knew and everyone that knew you. Remove the shoes you came on, feel the earth you’re made from, pack up all your questions, just keep heading inland and come on home to me.

~Inland.Jars of Clay

14.10.12
"If He wants me there, He’ll get me there." This conviction has led me into so many incredible experiences. If God wants me to go somewhere, He’ll get me there. All I have to do is follow any necessary steps to lead to it.
The words are not there when you cannot grasp. Your heart is scared- where can you go? The turbulent sea and the storm through matters of every kind- the sails are torn, the ache of scorn. Your words we will find. You will see me through. You will see me through. Not on ambiguous components of deceit. The inner workings, motivations replete. I neither know nor need to know- subterfuge of thoughts so low- me need is to depend on you for you will see me through.
~See Me Through.Edison Glass

14.10.12

"If He wants me there, He’ll get me there." This conviction has led me into so many incredible experiences. If God wants me to go somewhere, He’ll get me there. All I have to do is follow any necessary steps to lead to it.

The words are not there when you cannot grasp. Your heart is scared- where can you go? The turbulent sea and the storm through matters of every kind- the sails are torn, the ache of scorn. Your words we will find. You will see me through. You will see me through. Not on ambiguous components of deceit. The inner workings, motivations replete. I neither know nor need to know- subterfuge of thoughts so low- me need is to depend on you for you will see me through.

~See Me Through.Edison Glass

14.10.11
There it goes- my last glimpse of hope. Goodbye to the life I thought I knew, hello to what they say I must do.
Once I was fearless, going up against the world. Optimistic, seeing all the reasons for good through the darkness, I could live through anything. Where, where did it go? I want to feel it like I did back then, but more. I really need it more than I’ve ever before. I believed in hope, where did it go? Stop fearing death! I want something to live for! I’ve been holding my breath, I want something to live for. ‘Cause when the deaf feel the sound I want something to live for. I want to make you proud. I want something to live for. “Hey, how’s it going?” “Good, and how are you?” “Good.” Often do you wonder how much that isn’t true? Will you help me out if you can? I’ll take you as you are, please just take me as I am. Stop fearing death! I want something to live for! I’ve been holding my breath, I want something to live for. ‘Cause when the deaf feel the sound I want something to live for. Idea of hope, I believe in you and I need it now- God, I need you. And yes, your words I believe are true, but sometimes I just fall down and break through. I don’t mean to. Stop fearing that and never look back, I swear I wish I could.
~I Want Something to Live For.The Rocket Summer

14.10.11

There it goes- my last glimpse of hope. Goodbye to the life I thought I knew, hello to what they say I must do.

Once I was fearless, going up against the world. Optimistic, seeing all the reasons for good through the darkness, I could live through anything. Where, where did it go? I want to feel it like I did back then, but more. I really need it more than I’ve ever before. I believed in hope, where did it go? Stop fearing death! I want something to live for! I’ve been holding my breath, I want something to live for. ‘Cause when the deaf feel the sound I want something to live for. I want to make you proud. I want something to live for. “Hey, how’s it going?” “Good, and how are you?” “Good.” Often do you wonder how much that isn’t true? Will you help me out if you can? I’ll take you as you are, please just take me as I am. Stop fearing death! I want something to live for! I’ve been holding my breath, I want something to live for. ‘Cause when the deaf feel the sound I want something to live for. Idea of hope, I believe in you and I need it now- God, I need you. And yes, your words I believe are true, but sometimes I just fall down and break through. I don’t mean to. Stop fearing that and never look back, I swear I wish I could.

~I Want Something to Live For.The Rocket Summer